Introduction | How I came to be

I’m devloaf. An aspiring roblox developer, editor, and youtuber. The day I started working on roblox games, I wondered how far I’d get. Spoiler alert, I got pretty far. But this came with its own consequences, all caused directly by me.

My first big job was Garden Horizons. A roblox game similar to Grow a Garden in concept, but more of a passion game than a cash grab. It was around early January when the game spiked in popularity. The trailers I made for the game were becoming more and more popular, and big youtubers like Kreekcraft were watching it. I became the face of the game, whether I liked it or not. It was everything to me, but that was what caused the downfall.

Days after the surge in popularity, the weight of everything hit me all at once, and I became completely overwhelmed by pressure. Suddenly, thousands of people were watching my every move, expecting constant updates and flawless content. I was desperately trying to balance giving the fans what they wanted, meeting the expectations of the owner, ymir, and somehow keeping up with my schoolwork. I was only 14 at the time, and I had absolutely no idea how to handle that kind of weight on my shoulders. It was all so new, and the stress blinded me to the consequences of my actions.

Eventually my work quality fell down, and before you knew it, I got fired from Garden Horizons. That was the worst day of my life.

Part 1: Grow a Random Plant

Days went by, and eventually I found myself making a new game, alongside someone named Protoxii. We were good buddies, and had dreams to beat Garden Horizons and create a better game. The idea was “Grow a Random Plant”. This game takes a spin on classic gardening, using RNG instead of simple seed planting.

As you could probably tell back then, this game was pretty popular. Kreekcraft watched the teaser for it, youtubers added me, and our discord was growing. But something I’ve learnt is that not everything good lasts forever.

Days went on, months, actually, of good progress. We had a full dev team, investors, and all you could dream of. That's when I started to get stressed again. I set myself a deadline that was unrealistic, and because of this, I pressured other developers into working fast too.

This caused problems later on, including me enforcing false bans, firing developers, and using AI to make thumbnails. Eventually, I was even asking for money. This part is important to the rest of the story, and is a main reason my reputation is awful.

I never meant to scam anyone, infact I am in the process right now of finding everyone who sent me money and paying them back. My plan was to invest this money into a website for the game, and plugins we could use to better our working experience. But this was immature of me. I never asked ProtoXII about whether or not I could do it, and I never clarified this in previous apologies. But to anyone who lost their money because of me, whether it was 1 dollar or 20, please email me at contact@thomasdesigns.us.

Another money related issue was with a developer who joined the team after he gave me 20 dollars. I did this because I was in desperate need of funding advertisements for my other side projects, so I made a deal with him. The deal went:

You pay me 20, I hire you on the team. (This was not a good idea and was very unprofessional of me.)

The dev agreed, and he paid me 20 dollars. The day after, I fired him. This was not a scam, and I am still looking for his user to pay him back. I had to fire him because I had stupid standards for our game. I wanted top quality, but because of that, a lot of people lost opportunities. I apologize for this, and I promise to God that I will pay everyone back. Please, if you were affected by me, contact the email I provided earlier with your cashapp.

I was also going through some severe mental problems. This caused me to lash out at testers, and I even threatened suicide multiple times in announcements. Before anyone asks, yes, I did actually have suicidal thoughts. This was not for attention. I was severely in danger of myself. I took a break for the night and woke up, flooded with dms.

A little after these events, I was booted off ownership by Proto, and that was the end of that.

Around 2 months later, a discord bot I had made for the server was taken over, and ended up banning over 2000 people (according to witnesses). I would like to confirm that I was not part of this attack. I was dealing with real life issues at the time, so I wouldn’t have been able to do this. As for how the bot got taken over, I am pretty sure the token was provided in the dev chat channel.

After the nuke, rumors spread that I was part of a hacking group called “ShinyHunters”. This is not true, and I never said this. Any images you see are completely false. No hacker group of this standard would hire a 14 year old to help them.

Proto, if you are reading this, please forgive me for all the damage I have done to you and the game. I made mistakes and I understand they cannot be forgiven easily, but I want to clear the border we have with each other and at least be able to talk to each other someday. I know I’ve apologized like this many times before, but this time I promise I mean it, from the bottom of my heart.

Part 2: Zlimpy, Liamoaif, and everyone else

As always, I found more games to work on. I only ever released two successful games, both died recently though. During this time of solo development, I met two prominent figures, Liamoaif, and Zlimpy.

At first, both were my friends. Zlimpy and I got along. Same with Liamoaif. But things changed quickly after I found out Zlimpy did some messed up stuff. I was not one to judge, so I simply confronted him in dms about it, asking if any of it was true. After this, he created “Files” of me, and spread them everywhere.

These files contained images of me saying all the stuff previously mentioned, but also contained edited images of me and out of context information. In retaliation, I created files of him, causing an even worse problem for the both of us.

Eventually, we cleared it up, and I gave Zlimpy a chance. I even let him co-own a game with me, but it turned out that the developers I hired had serious issues with Zlimpy, so I had no choice but to boot him out of the group, causing another argument between us. To this day, he still has me blocked, and is still spreading “Files” of me.

Liamoaif was a different story. She and I worked together closely for multiple weeks. I hired her for my games, and we were doing great together. Eventually, we got into an argument, because she was sick of the dramas I was in. I cannot blame her for that. We sorted it out and things went back to normal for the longest time.

But eventually, after the Grow a Random Plant nuking, Liamoaif started bashing on me again (which I will say, I deserved it, but it wasn’t fair that she didn’t hear my side. I never nuked Grow a Random Plant). She blocked me, I blocked her, that was that.

Eventually, I joined a game called Dig a Seed, and was working for them for a short period of time. I noticed Liamoaif was on the team and decided to leak the dms of her and what she said to me. This was a stupid idea, once again, and I regret it deeply. I got fired (as always), but this time I just didn’t care anymore. I was at the lowest point of my life and I had just lost all my friends to my stupidity. I gave liamoaif a friend request, but she just cussed me out and threatened to swat me. I blocked her after, and my comments got flooded with her just calling me an “Abuser” and a “Liar”.

Liamoaif AND Zlimpy, I am sorry for everything. If you don’t believe me, let my future actions prove I can change.

What Now | Words for the community

What now? Well.. I owe everyone an apology.

I am sorry. Words cannot describe how sorry I am, but actions can. I promise that no one will have to deal with this ever again. No one will ever have to worry that I’m gonna bother anyone again. I will be the best I can be.

If you are reading this, I trust that you can understand me. I trust that you believe in change. And I trust that you can help me if I ever feel down again.

Please give me a chance.

P.S. I alone cannot get this to everyone, so if you are feeling kind, please help share this document everywhere! Love yall <3